i have always been one of those people that is quite energetic, not so much physically, but mostly psychologically, my mind is always working, when I am doing something, in my mind I am already planning the next 10 things to do… so it comes as no surprise to me that I constantly require excitement or challenge in my life. But are relationships the right way to get these?
don’t all relationships eventually grow steady and stable and have reduced excitement and challenge? is it a case that because I expect them I actually do not provide them? are relationships supposed to also be entertaining?
why are people together? what is this need to feel a body, the heat, the warmth, the smell?
why can’t we all be really good friends? why does the heart become so weak at the sight of certain and determined people? do we choose who to love or does love choose us?
are people meant to be or they just are because they need to?
i question because i didn’t do it before and I know i need to. i have certain certainties that are scary and therefore i need to question, i need to understand what is it all about. i have this feeling of being powerful and powerless at the same time. I feel weak and strong and for the first time I truly feel protected but maybe this is not the protection i wish for?
i believe in destiny and i believe that certain people come from a place where they get tags placed at birth that determine who they belong with. Many would say they have that case, most are wrong for they are nothing like made for each other. Most are with who they feel comfortable with… but there are the lucky few… not the ones that have the passionate and crazy relationships, not the ones that have been together forever and follow all the right steps, not the ones that are loud and show off, and not the ones that break plates when they argue, in fact there is no recipe when it comes to love and relationships… for all i know and care people that belong together change each other for the better, the rest will be forever stuck!
so sometimes we will have to deal with lack of excitement and progress! sometimes we will doubt, sometimes we will question too much, and in times, given that you have found your tagged other half, there is nothing to worry about apart from the very small details, the ones that we didn’t even notice in the first place, the ones that make them different from us, the ones that may annoy us so much that we must find out why and try to find the balance within ourselves, because surely, they are not that serious!
so live a day at a time and enjoy who you have for what they are best at, you wouldn’t want them to see you only for your worse side…
only a few of us have the luck of finding people that make us better and who we have the same effect on… it’s not a good idea to let them escape, certain good things only come around once!