Thinking that I am someone who has always taken risks actually comes into a new perspective now… and I guess that is what the last year has been teaching me… the fact that having had a bad outcome when taking a risk does not necessarily mean that I must stop doing it!
So I guess I have been playing it safe for almost two years now… I guess that I am looking way ahead because it took it too much day by day before… how balanced must one be??? Or better still, how balanced can one be???
It seems that I always need to over-analyze everything… and these situations keep on being thrown at me… spontaneity…
Can I do it again? Can I enjoy that same pleasure that was so responsible for turning my life upside down?! I guess I have to understand that it was not spontaneity that did it, if anything spontaneity took me closer to something that was very strong and real at the time…
Is it time to get a little bit more of my old self back?